I look around me and I see pieces of paper scattered on the tables, the floor, the shelves. Disorganized, scattered, still in pieces. The papers lie untouched. I look outside my window... Green that makes the view look grey. People pass on bicycles, in cars, or walking as if trying to catch up on an invisible entity. All around me are black doves, black swans and dark ponds that reflect nothing.
Back to the room, where empty spaces busy my eyes. I slowly pick up the papers... Trying to put them into some sort of order. Trying to figure out in what order. Wondering how little order there is. Wondering why I have these pieces of papers in my hand. And suddenly I forget why I'm here. In this room that I try so hard to call home. I'm in a place where all I need to worry about is me. A place where faith in humanity died at birth. A place where people actually choose to be blind.
And so I sit here. In this room that I must call home. This place I chose to live in. And so I see my childhood dreams die
Saturday, October 15, 2005
About Me

- Name: Yani Malai
- Location: BSB brunei, Brunei
a sufferer of chronic verbal diarrheoa. my health depends on how much i talk. though not on what i talk about. i study Linguistics with Literature at the University of York. now this does by no means equates to eloquance or being knowledgeable. my weight fluctuates as does my self confidence. it's just a coincidence...I am *not* obsessed with my weight...at least that's what weightwatchers tells me i should never be...umm...i like writing about feelings/thoughts rather than events.but it all depends.
Previous Posts
- First impressions...
- i'm going to wake up tomorrow
- budak budak! kami kat kuala lumpur!
- we don't really know what we want
- "dude...what happened to us man?"..."what?"...wat ...
- sorry
- untitled
- The end of the road... Wait, it's a fork. No, it's...
- The good, the better and the just plain weird...
- it's been long time, shouldntve left u...


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