unreflectedsoul

we don't really know what we want

Hello there! Ahh...the beauty of wifi...I can actually go online given i buy a $5 drink...or park strategically close to the wireless network *evil grin*

Anyhoo...I did some pondering the other day...because pondering is what i do when i'm driving alone at 8 in the morning with nothing to do for 2 and a half hours. yes, so i was pondering... and i pondered...and in conclusion of my pondering, i realised that we humans don't really know what we want. Ok, so maybe it could just be me, but i'm human,so perhaps i can speak on behalf of the whole civilisation. yea, well, we humans always pray or wish for better lives somehow. however small, the want for it is there. take myself for example.Ever since i was a kid-listening to the romantic tales my parents told of their love in the days of yore-i've dreamed of being with someone who i've known for years. my bestfriend, someone i have a lot in common with.you know, my supposed 'other half'.

i found him a few years ago. what i liked, he liked.what i did, he did.like, we had everything in common!i was so excited at first, then it got kind of freaky... okay, really freaky(lets hope he's not reading this). so yea, i got freaked, kind of annoyed,but through the whole thing i gave the impression that this is exactly what i've always wanted. well, it was, wasnt it? yea, but i freaked, and no matter how much we had in common, we didn't understand each other. so it didnt work out. so now i'm in a stable relationship with a guy i've had as anacquaintance for i dunno like 4 years, but never really spoke to. we have almost nothing in common,i got to know him for 6 months before we got together, and hey, i'm happy. 'THIS is what i need' i thought.

there's this other example that might make me seem less shallow, trivial and superficial, but i don't wanna go there. basically it's like, i've always wanted all of my own space, and once im really close to getting it, i realise that i love my life exactly how it is.

you know, this post is starting to sound like it should be titled 'we're (Or more specifically, I'm)never happy with what we've got'... maybe so... but to put that aside, don't you think it's true? its kind of the reverse of 'we don't know what we've got until it's gone'.

well, i guess i've gotta go now...i'll see ya around. ada tu nanti.

posted by Yani Malai @ 10:14 PM