unreflectedsoul

its been a while

"it's been a while, since i could hold my head up high,
it's been a while, since i first saw you..." - Staind

yep, been a while since i wrote or posted anything. haven't been in school or in any other place where i can use the internet for my saddistic use.muahahaha!! umm...anyhow, i had an exam yesterday. it had to be my worst of all. didnt like it. went really really really horrible. i cried when i got home, and out of my exaggerated depression wrote something which has nothing to do with how i felt.i just read too much "Othello" i think,so the quotes were still swimming in my head. eek...nothing like a shakesperean quote to accompany me during a shower. especially if it's something like, "i'll tear her into peices." so yeah... but most things that are born out of my sadness are the things i end up feeling much pride for. so here's my latest creation:

This is what God has engendered so that i may repent my sins. be it that this is not some mere foreshadowing of what may come, and in a form more unfortunate than this. my love was my flaw, and my flaw causes me to sin. so, shall this be my fall? is this my tragedy?

'What is is not what it seems,
neither is what is not.
a sin done long ago-'tis done,
and Time has made me forgot.

i ask myself many times,
what makes this sin a sin?
could it be the love i bear?
no, 'tis the lov within.

my passion perhaps was my flaw,
but wherefore does this passion fruit?
'Tis the love i carry, nourish, grow from,
that i have within my roots.

let my roots feed my passion,
my desires, my hopes, my lust.
and from there(though irony seems to touch)
from lust did my love also fruit trust.

or was it trust and love,
that i did carry in my roots?
that does seem to nourish 'lust'(as it seems)
into my sins, that is the fruit.

or perhaps my sins were seeds,
yes seeds that were carelessly sown.
dormant beneath the earth-forgotten,
but now they have grown.

grown into yet another tree,
bark soft, flowers red but sweet.
beneath the bark lies the life,
that continues this deceit.

the tree of life? yes.
"Eat this and you betray Him"
yes,much like the story of God,
perhaps ignorance was my sin.

no, ignorance was a fault,
as was my love, trust and passion was my flaw,
and so now the nutrients are here,
to feed what shall be my fall'

yeah so thats it. see ya next time

posted by Yani Malai @ 2:32 PM